Sunday, March 29, 2009

...more than i was willing to lose.

This is what is it
we loved and now
we've lost, lost more
than what I was
willing to lose.
I've found love in the
brown pupils of your eyes
I've gained more from the
past years that was once
shared it was real we both
felt at the time when there was
something to feel.
You've decided our faith
I had no say, I stood in the
distance praying that you would
not give our love away. It was decided...
no longer. I wept for hours, days, months
and years. A woman decides what she wants
I wanted you my heart loved you and the
knee slapper it still does and I still do.
What more can be mentioned that you and
your heart would not already know if you
once loved.....me.

It sucks yearning for financial security.

I am desperately, yearning for some financial security. I need a raise and badly, the thing is i owe more than i am making. I had two jobs and could make ends meet now because of the failing economy my second job scaled back. it was not based on choice because the honest truth is that there were no customers to make profit from parties and weddings were being cancelled faster than a hurricane. Now, i am in a position where i have no option than to make ends meet with what I am making at the moment which is nothing. I could go on and on but i know that everyone that will be reading this blog would agree and attest to their own financial yearnings. feel free to comment on this blog we'll see how far this will go. i know its just a vague blog that expresses financial frustration ( that's the point) so comment! lol.